2010 Reflection

You brought me to a cross road that made me rethink me. You made me think about any attachments that were depleting my emotional reserves; and assured me that it was time for me to let them go. I've been lied to, promise false hope, commitment, question my security and made me unsure of myself. I've been tested and push to a place that I had to sit still and think because my reaction would've been so much deadly. I've fallen in love; out of love, been shown love, sad, mad, left confused AND found myself asking Y. I found myself fighting for things that I should've given up a long time ago. I experience the worst pain of loosing a parent. I discovered and had my soul reengerzie from a "ME" vacation getaway. However, I'm grateful for everything I've experience. Because of you I 've became so much stronger than ever before. Because of you my vision is much clear. Because of you I'm walking into a new year not taking, putting up or subjecting myself to any negativity,explaining myself, false promises, lies, holding on or unhappiness. Thank you 2010 I am going out with a bang! Because the only room I have for 2011 is Greatness!!

Update

Fasting: My fasting didn't go as well as I wanted. I last only for two days..lol.. But I will continue to strive to get stronger so I can succeed in this journey. One of my bff told me that I started off doing to many days..I wanted to do a week.

Marriage: Talked it over with my BFF who have been married 20 plus years to her DH and my sister n law. I received some enlighten heart to heart advice. She told me that we often do go thru stages in our marriage and she had once reach the same point as I. There is nothing wrong with it. There are a lot of marriages where each spouse have falling in and out of love with each other. Rather than concentrate on me falling out of love.. I need to pray and ask the lord to work on me and to instill the love that I had for DH back into my heart. Don't get me wrong I ABSOLUTELY LOVE DH..But I also want to BE IN LOVE with him. She said All I can do is pray and continue to do me and go from there. My sister n law said the samething. So at this point I'm concentrating on working on me. It's a lot of things that I need to ask the lord to help me with when it comes to been a wife.

Health: I'm working out on a steady basis. Although, I love running I've learnt that if I can't get a run in ;I need to at least get a walk in. I found that my thinking is much more clear when I do either. It's like my soul open up and I enjoy the one on one feeling that I get when I'm exercising. My garmin that DH brought me for Xmas (I love this gadget) makes me want to get out and do something. I love the heart rate monitor and it help that I know my exact time and distance that I run.

2011 out look: My affirmation for 2011. I am a successful 40 year old Surgical Technologist who enjoy running my 2 Marathon and other small races I've enter. I'm healthy physically, mentally, spiritually and financially. I enjoy volunteering and giving back to the community. for volunteering is good for my soul. I attracted nothing but positive energy into my life and are constant surround with positive people. I live in a loving abundant, harmonious universe and I am grateful. I'm happy and my relationship is getting stronger by the min. I enjoy traveling and taking time out to spending time with my girlfriends and reconnecting with them. I'm living a more consciously, happy and authentic lifestyle and loving every minute of it!!