Update

First, thank you Dia for keeping me in your thoughts and prayers. I had a long talk with DH and told him exactly how I was feeling, what I was thinking and where we was at according to my side of looking at the relationship. I was very blunt and clear on what I felt needed to happen. Basically it was Let either get back to what we do best; loving, taking care of, having fun, holding, laughing and fighting for / showing each other that we want the relationship or other wise we just need to cut our losses and leave each other alone. Because we have argue more now than we have than any of the first 13 years combine together. Personally i am tired, of him constantly pushing me way, neglecting and if he needed time to himself... I give him that but I will continue to move on with my life. Either he start back been the loving husband and me the wife, we take care of family and home, trust GOD cause everything else really don't matter. He agreed he was pushing me away and that wanted the relationship, and his family. Thus far he have shown great improvement with effort in communicating, been attentive an etc. He knows I have put it in the lords hand and left it there. I just pray that I'm stronger enough to accept what every direction the lord take this relationship rather it for the good or bad.

Next..I've officially recovery from my sickness. Although, I didn't want to go but to play it on the safe side I visit my doctor. Especially since one of my classmate was diagnose with the H1N1. i felt the need to get check out because she was around me alot. Everything check out okay.Iwas ordered to get some rest so, that my body can heal properly. So it was no working out for me. My chest was so congested that if I ran I don't think I would've been able to breath anyway. So I go some much needed rest. I feel 100% better. I will be up and running tomorrow a.m. back in business.

I have been sick since Sunday. The day I was to return to working out. Tossing, coughing, sore throat, sneezing and spitting up phlegm at night, which is causing me to have restless night. But I'm determine to get up in the a.m and go running. I have all of November and December to get it right. So I'm going to load up on Vitamin C, B-12, Cod liver oil and any other medicine that can help me get back healthy. I've already taken my flu shot no not the H1N1 shot(lol) the regular one. But hope all is having a great week working out and it time for me to hit the sack. Enjoy your night, morning or day. Depending on what coast you're living in. Later!

Confession time. I Reflection have not been working out. Althou I've maintaing my weight beteen 157-160lbs. My eating habits is I eat what ever I want and whenever I want to. School is so kicking my a$$ that working out is the least on my mind. On Mondays, Wednesday/Fridays I'm convince my self to be at school now at 7:00 a.m. so that i 'll have an extra two hours to work on any assignment, although my first class isn't until 9-10:45a.m. and my second class is from 11a.m.-11:45a.m on Mon/wed... Instead of me going home I stayed after my last class until around 2:30 depending on how deeply I'm into my work. I've found my self been up there until 6:00.

I'm stressing out in the relationship department. The distance of hubby been in Iraq is causing strain on our marriage. This third deployment have been the hardest. We are becoming more disconnected more on his part. I can only fight so much to stay connected to him but when the other person isn't fighting then it's not going to work. I have to remind him to call home, he get mad at me so easily and when he do send an email he seem to say the same thing over and over. It's like it hard for him to talk and he have to find things to talk about. It's a constant strain for him to even write a letter or email . But I've made up in my mind to let go and let GOD. Even thou I know this will be the hardest things to do but I can't do it by myself. So I'm turning it over to the lord. I just hope I'm strong enough to accept whatever decision he will make in my life and marriage.

So I've decided once again to restart my exercise regime. I figure it's best for me to set weekly goals. Wait have I tried this before? hmm not sure but what hell. If I'm doing weekly workout goals It'll be more easy for me to meet them. Unlike monthly goals.. With monthly goals I found myself negotiating if i miss the first or two weeks. My thinking was hell I can work out really hard the last two weeks. So I'll see how that work out. Tweaking is the best way and only way you'll find out what's work for you... Until then have a great week and enjoy your day. My week of excersie will start from Sunday-Sunday.

I CAN'T WAIT UNTIL THIS SCHOOL QUARTER IS OVER!!