So far I'm on Day 5/83 Completed 4.35 mile, stadium steps (2x6x40) <----2 x 6 rows 40 steps. Great workout today!!
Friday, March 23, 2012
What If? No What if Just Do It!
So far I'm on Day 5/83 Completed 4.35 mile, stadium steps (2x6x40) <----2 x 6 rows 40 steps. Great workout today!!
Monday, March 19, 2012
3 month update recap!
After careful researching and reading I started out my year with a 21 day fast! I knew I really needed to do this because, I didn't want my 2012 to be a reflection of 2011 nor the last 5 years. For I was tired, disgusted, needed a change, needed to find happiness,and have peace in my life. I couldn't keep going the way I was going because, it was changing me into a person I didn't like. So I begin to prepare for a spiritually journey! Whatever direction the lord wanted me to go, decision that he made I was prepared to accept, and move on. I let go and let God!
Confess your sins to God. Ask the Holy Spirit to reveal areas of weakness. Forgive all who have offended you and ask forgiveness from those you may have offended (Mark 11:25; Luke 11:4; 17:3-4). Surrender your life fully to Jesus Christ and reject the worldly desires that try to hinder you (Romans 12:1-2).
I didn't pray to save my marriage because I wasn't sure if I even wanted it. I mean really how can you pray for something you not sure you even want anymore..For I had already made up in my mind that I was done. All I said for that subject was Lord you do whatever you want with that!.lol. I think DH and I was really on the same page. Because as DH put it there wasn't any love in the house anymore. A lot of it was coming from me. I wasn't conversing, Nada just existing and been along with my thoughts.
Not sure if people believe in prophet or not. Which I know there are a lot of false prophets. But somehow out of no where DH was approach by prophet Harris. Don't get me wrong DH have encounter Harris briefly before because he is in his unit. On this particular day he was approach by Harris, and said he had a word for DH because he was open and ready to receive it. Of course DH didn't tell me everything only the things that was pertaining to us. According to DH, Harris spoke of things from five years until presence about DH life and he was very accurate. He told him that the lord said that I was his wife he picked out for him. &<---So that was my conformation for me. What he told DH shocked him and scared him!
But all I know DH came home with this blank expression on his face for lunch. He looked like he had seen a ghost. The first thing he said was sit down I have something to tell you. I'm thinking what's wrong with you, what bad news you have to tell me? Then DH began to apologize for not been the husband he needed to be. He said he had prayed to the lord that day to fix his marriage because he can't do it nor no how to do it. Because if not he was going to file for divorce,at the end of the week. Because he knew I was unhappy, didn't want the marriage and he didn't know what else to do. He just start talking about his encounter with Harris. He talked for a whole hour.
So where are we now? There are a lot of rebuilding going on in our relationship. We/the family have been attending different Churches to find a church home. We are reading our bible, praying together and attending bible studies phone conferences. Our house now has a more calmer, peaceful and loving atmosphere. DH has spiritually brother in his life Harris, Elder Gray and forgot the other one name. I can see the change in him. I have meet Harris and yes he gave me a word. All I could do was laugh because he told me the lord said that I couldn't do it by myself.
He even told me that I've been in prayer,and fasting since December and even told me the first scripture I'd read. Actually I start my very first fast back in December, after DH went off to Afgahanstan. Which was perfect timing Because DH didn't agree with give up sex for the 13 days while I was on my fast. I wanted to give up sex because, I really wanted to have a powerful experience as I bring greater focus on the lord. I didn't want any distractions.
So I end this with saying everything is good over here. Rebuilding, restructuring and growing in our faith. I'm enjoying the person I'm returning too and becoming!
elevating to a higher level,
~Shelia~
Confess your sins to God. Ask the Holy Spirit to reveal areas of weakness. Forgive all who have offended you and ask forgiveness from those you may have offended (Mark 11:25; Luke 11:4; 17:3-4). Surrender your life fully to Jesus Christ and reject the worldly desires that try to hinder you (Romans 12:1-2).
I didn't pray to save my marriage because I wasn't sure if I even wanted it. I mean really how can you pray for something you not sure you even want anymore..For I had already made up in my mind that I was done. All I said for that subject was Lord you do whatever you want with that!.lol. I think DH and I was really on the same page. Because as DH put it there wasn't any love in the house anymore. A lot of it was coming from me. I wasn't conversing, Nada just existing and been along with my thoughts.
Not sure if people believe in prophet or not. Which I know there are a lot of false prophets. But somehow out of no where DH was approach by prophet Harris. Don't get me wrong DH have encounter Harris briefly before because he is in his unit. On this particular day he was approach by Harris, and said he had a word for DH because he was open and ready to receive it. Of course DH didn't tell me everything only the things that was pertaining to us. According to DH, Harris spoke of things from five years until presence about DH life and he was very accurate. He told him that the lord said that I was his wife he picked out for him. &<---So that was my conformation for me. What he told DH shocked him and scared him!
But all I know DH came home with this blank expression on his face for lunch. He looked like he had seen a ghost. The first thing he said was sit down I have something to tell you. I'm thinking what's wrong with you, what bad news you have to tell me? Then DH began to apologize for not been the husband he needed to be. He said he had prayed to the lord that day to fix his marriage because he can't do it nor no how to do it. Because if not he was going to file for divorce,at the end of the week. Because he knew I was unhappy, didn't want the marriage and he didn't know what else to do. He just start talking about his encounter with Harris. He talked for a whole hour.
So where are we now? There are a lot of rebuilding going on in our relationship. We/the family have been attending different Churches to find a church home. We are reading our bible, praying together and attending bible studies phone conferences. Our house now has a more calmer, peaceful and loving atmosphere. DH has spiritually brother in his life Harris, Elder Gray and forgot the other one name. I can see the change in him. I have meet Harris and yes he gave me a word. All I could do was laugh because he told me the lord said that I couldn't do it by myself.
He even told me that I've been in prayer,and fasting since December and even told me the first scripture I'd read. Actually I start my very first fast back in December, after DH went off to Afgahanstan. Which was perfect timing Because DH didn't agree with give up sex for the 13 days while I was on my fast. I wanted to give up sex because, I really wanted to have a powerful experience as I bring greater focus on the lord. I didn't want any distractions.
So I end this with saying everything is good over here. Rebuilding, restructuring and growing in our faith. I'm enjoying the person I'm returning too and becoming!
elevating to a higher level,
~Shelia~
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